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Versufd, zo duf
Verdoofd, mijn hoofd
Verhard, mijn hart        
Mezelf, verward
Gedacht, gedicht
Voor twijfel gezwicht  
Bewust, bestaan
Verkeerd verstaan
Verkeerd verwoord
Nu ongestoord
Mijn pijn gehaat    
Verstild, gewenst
Verhard, mijn hart
Mezelf verwenst

Bad Habits Hard To Break

I keep holding on to what I shouldn't
Let you go, but keep you near
Broke the bonds, but kep the memory
Alive, it is my biggest fear
To loose you, you're not even mine
Illusions, hopes of having more
But this connection, thinnest line
I cut the threads, let go my wrists
Held captive by my heart and mind
The struggle, even though I'm winning
Will damage me, not be so kind
As to the things I think I feel
And know are not, so true
There's nothing left to burn
Nothing left to do
The ships of my imagination
I've left so far behind
Will haunt me still
But I'll break free, unchained
Unspoken, even better still
And leave this place, a bit more broken
My shattered soul, my bleeding heart
Knowing I'm alive, awoken
Addicted to this game, this pain
But never to return,this past
The present is my gift, but you
I have to let go, be the last
And say goodbye and carry on

Everything in it's place and a place for everything

Me in the spotlight 
Just not in this lifetime 
I hear the applause 
And accept that it's not mine 

Behind every strong man 
Stands a wife to support him 
She's taking a step back
Plays second violin

Me is the keyword
The answer I crave
To find where my place is
Learn how to behave

Behind every mask
Hides a person with feelings
Who's trying to balance
Tween rock-bottom and ceiling

For me it's no different
I'm struggling to stand
But I know I'll stand stronger
When you hold my hand 

Come Into My World

Do you listen to what I say when you hear me 
Can you tell that it’s me when you hold me 
Do you know that I long to have you near me 
Can you look me in the eye when you see me 

Do you think that you know me 
Do you know you can show me 
Can you live inside my world
Or can you simply let me be me

Do you know that I think of you always
Can you tell that you’re here in my heart
Do you have a clue that I am here
Can you remember my name when I ask you

Do you think that you know me
Do you know you can show me
Can you live inside my world
Or can’t you simply let me be me

Do you think of me when you’re dreaming
Can you see me walking down the street
Do you know it’s a true smile I’m giving
Can you guess that I’m still loving you

Do you think that you know me
Do you know you can show me
Can you live inside my world?

I don’t know if I can 

I Let You Go

I let you go 
Blood of my blood 
Child of reason 
Moment of understanding 
Years ago 
Time is nothing 
But to you is all 
Slipping away
Like sand through the hourglass
Which I have broken
I played my violin
I watched your words
I heard your song
But still
I let you go
Child of a new age
One in a million
Lost to me
Forever in time 

I'm Over It

You put a spell on me 
Of that I’m sure 
How else could I miss you so 
Want you so 

In another life maybe 
I would have you 
How else could I love you so
Miss you so

I just let you be
Carry my dreams
How else could I want you so
Love you so

You put a spell on me
Still I do...
How else could I hate you so
I’m over it 

Little Daydream

Wind in my back 
Sun in my eyes 
Cute little daydream 
Perfect surprise 

Wake in the Darkness 
Under the moon 
Bye little daydream
Meet again soon

Hair black as cole
Skin white as snow
Cute little daydream
How could I know

Never I’ll meet you
Never we’ll kiss
Bye little daydream
Forever I’ll miss 

You'll Know

You’ll know that it’s you when you read this 
You’ll know that it’s me when you hear my voice 
You’ll see that it’s me when I come for you 
I’ll see you in dreams and beyond 

You’ll know that it’s you when I tell it 
You’ll know that it’s me when I cry your name 
You’ll know that it’s you who has hurt me
I’ll show you what you made

You wanted to guide me
You wanted to show me
Egypt was too far away
For Sam and Seth to see

You’ll know that it’s you when I name you
You’ll know that it’s me when I kiss your lips
You’ll know that it’s you, I’m sure you will
I cannot be forsaken

Question Existing

There's a question existing 
In the shadow of my heart 
Between feeling and doing 
I'm torn up apart 
In a parallel universe 
Maybe I'd have both 
But that question existing 
Is that's what it's worth?
And the sadder this gets
As no-one but me knows
In the shadow of my heart
My love for you grows
There's a question existing
And the answer so nearby
But when one question's answered
I still won't know why
So the questions continue
In the shadow of my heart
Fights the battle, fights my feeling
But it can never tear me apart

This Is Goodbye

Sometimes isn’t good enough
Forever I’ll try
In time will I learn again
To say my goodbyes
Your haunting my memory
You cloud up my eyes
Your name on my lips
But this is goodbye